tell me

March 27, 2007 - One Response

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW DO YOU GET PASS SOMEONE YOU’VE LOVED SINCE THE FIRST TIME YOU LAYED EYES ON THEM. PLEASE TELL ME HOW!

that,s my friend

March 10, 2007 - Leave a Response

thank you for that comment and i will continue to write because i don’t know who is reading this, and who it is helping.

 Thank you will write soon

My Be My Last Time

March 7, 2007 - One Response

tonight is the last night of my critical thinking class, and these blogs were fro that. I have enjoyed blog and reading others also. I meet someone from a different culture whom seemed to be real nice. I want go there. Some times you do thing to save face value of some one else. In writing these blog I’ve discovered that I like to write, I for people to enjoy.It may not make much since but I think I get the point a cross. To my frien on the otherside of the world i hate things are the way they are. but as Ennice said you can’t change it learn to stand it. That’s what i’m going to do. Take care of yourself. To everyone else, which been reading and not leaving comments, thank you for tapping in. I’m going to continue with my schooling, working and taking care of my children. I can’t keep myself wide open anymore. so at the end of this blog, i will be saying bye fro a while any way. 

Thank you,

Good-Bye 

RELATIONSHIPS ARE A FUNNY THING!!!

March 6, 2007 - Leave a Response

 WHY WOULD YOU TELL SOMEONE THAT’S IT’S OVER AND STILL CONTINUE TO DO THE SAME THING YOU DID WHEN YOU ALL WAS IN THE RELATIONSHIP. YOU SET NEW BOUNDRIES AND STILL YET YOU CROSS THEM JUST THE SAME.YOU NEVER TOLD ME THT YOU LVOE ME, BUT YET AND STILL YOU DON’T WANT ANYONE ELSE TO HAVE ME. YOU COME BY WITH OUT CALLING, ARE YOU TRYIN’ TO CATCH SOMETHING?HOW COME IN ON DAY YOU TELL ME NOT TO CALL, A WEEK LATER CALL IF YOU NEED SOME HELP WITH YOUR SCHOOL.WHAT WHICH ONE IS IT CALL OR DON’T CALL. I FEEL IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE THAT YOU SHOULD BE OPEN AND HONEST AND TELL THEM HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT THEM. DON’T TAKE IT FOR GRANTED THAT I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL, YES I CAN SEE THAT YOU LOVE ME, BY THE WAY YOU DO FOR ME. BUT WHEN THESE EYES CLOSE FOREVER I WANT BE ABLE TO SEE THOSE THINGS ANYMORE.PUT THE WORDS “I LOVE YOU” IN MY EAR SO IT CAN REACH MY HEART MY VERY SOUL, AND WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES I CAN STILL HERE IT IN MY SOUL BECAUSE IT NEVER DIES. SO STOP PLAYING THESE FUNNY GAMES AND TELL ME HOW YOU TRUELY FEEL FRO ME.

IT’S A MAN’S WORLD,BUT A WOMAN CAN RUN IT!!!

March 4, 2007 - Leave a Response

ABOUT A MONTH AGO MY DAUGHTER HAD ONE OF HER TEMPERTANTRUMS, WHICH WAS HER LAST. SHE PUT A HOLE IN MY BATHROOM WALL AFTER I PULL RANK ON HER. SHE ONLY 12, AND SHE’S FEELING HER OR SHOULD I SAY SMELLING HERSELF. SHE HATES FOR ME TO PULL RANK ON HER, AND TELL HER TO STAY IN SA CHILDS PLACE. ANYWAY THIS DAY I HAD PLANS TO BE ON SCHEDULE WITH EVERYTHING THAT DAY. SHE WANTED TO LAY AROUND BECAUSE SHE WAS TRIED (?). I FINALLY GOT HER INTO THE BATHROOM, THE PHONE RUNG , WHILE I’M ON THE PHONE I HEAR A BIG THUMP, SHE COMES TO MY BED ROOM DOOR “I”M SORRY, MOMMA I’M SORRY” SHE BEGGED FOR A WHILE I HAD TO CLOSE MY DOOR IN HER FACE TO KEEP FROM HURTING HER. I RENT THE PLACE THAT I’M IN ,AND MY LANDLORD HAS BEEN A VERY GOOD ONE. SO A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO HE SINCE A MAN OUT TO FIX THE HOLE. WHEN I GOT HOME THAT AFTER NOON TO SEE IT ,IT LOOKED LIKE CRAP THE MUD HAD RUN DOWN AND SETTLE INTO A BIG CLUMP. I CALLED MY LAND LORD AND GAVE HIM MY OPINION OF THE WORK .” VICKIE FIX IT YOUR SELF OR FIND SOMEONE ELSE TO DO IT.”SAID MR. “FINE THIS NO PROBLEM I WILL DO IT MYSELF.” I REPLY.SO YESTERDAY I WENT INTO THE BATH ROOM TO FIX IT. I HAD ALREADY KNOCKED THE OLD MUD OUT THAT LOOKED LIKE CRAP. I WATCHED MY FATHER DO IT ALL THE TIME. SO I FOUND SOME SHEETROCK IN THE GARAGE, AND I CUT A PEICE TO FIT THE HOLE. PERFECT FIT. I USEDTHE TAPE AND COVERED IT WITH THE MUD,AND IT LOOKS DAM GOOD. WHY DID I USE THIS TITLE BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE SOME MEN THINK A WOMEN WHO IS SINGLE AND STAY ALONE HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL THEY COME AND FIX SOMETHING. I HAVE PROVED MY LANDLORD WRONG PLENTY OF TIMES THIS I JUST ONE MORE FOR ME. I TRY TO LET HIM HANDLE THE MANTENACE ON THE PLACE , SOME I CAN JUST DO MY SELF. ANOTHER REASON TO USE THAT TITLE IS BECAUSE OF THE PRESIDENTAL ELECTION THAT GOING ON NOW, IN ALL OF MY 37 YEARS I THINK MRS. HILLARY IS THE FIRST WOMEN TO RUN A FOR PRESIDENT. I THINK SHE IS CABLE AND ABLE TO RUN THE COUNTRY BECAUSE SHE DID IT EIGHT YEARS AGO!

JUST BECAUSE WOMEN ARE MADE DIFFERENT FROM MEN DOES NOT MEAN WE HAVEN’T LEARN FROM THEM. TO THINK THE WAY THEY DO, SEE THINGS AS THEY SEE THEM. WORK JUST AS HARD AS THEM. FILL IN A HOLE CORRECTLY AS THEY SHOULD HAVE ( I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE WHAT HE GOT TO SAY).

SOME OF THE GREATEST TEACHERS ARE MEN, SO DON’T STOP TEACHING, BECAUSE EVERY WOMAN DON’T HAVE A MAN TO DO FOR THEM WHEN THEY NEED IT DONE THEY HSVE TO HSNDLE THINGS THEM SELFS. MY HOLE IS FILLED READY TO BE SANDED DOWN, AND PAINTED. THE DAUGHTER STAYING IN A CHILDS PLACE.

My thoughts on Broke Back Mountion

March 1, 2007 - One Response

I thougth the movies was well written, the actors and actoress played very good rolls.  They had compasion about their charactors.There was nothing graffic about the movie,I also think it left alot to your imagnation. I saw it as a love story , not between Adam and Eve but, Adam and Steve. I don’t condon thier behavior, that one is on them . They will be the only person standing at their judgement day. I don’t look at the people who have that pervance, in a mean nasty way, if that what they want more power to them. I was not offened by the movie at all. I like the dicussion we had afterwards. I was a chance to see what every one else thought about the movie. So to my critical thinking teacher, it was a good project to get us (me) to think outside of the box. Because in live we will meet people with different walks in life ,that will my not agree with. They chose to take that road, and some are pulled on to it.So if they want to walk it let them rather, it be alone or with some else. You don’t have to travel it take the high road or take the next right. God( your God) is the final judge. 

WHAT’S ON THE OTHER SIDE OF MY MOUSE:)

February 27, 2007 - Leave a Response

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SURFING , THE INERNET THAT IS. ONE DAY I WENT SURFING AND I CAME UPON AN ACTIRCLE I THOUGHT INTERESTING. I READ IT. I LEFT A COMMENT FOR THE WRITER. I ASK A QUESTION WHICH HE ANSWERED. SO HE READ SOME OF MINE AND LEFT SOME COMMENTS. ALONG WITH HIS COMMENT HE LEFT HIS  E-MAIL ADDRESS. SO BEING THE CURIOUS PERSON THAT I AM. I SENT HIM A G-MAIL, HE RESPONED LITTLE KNOWN TO ME HE IS ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD ,WHILE HE IS SLEEPING IM UP WORKING, VIS-VERSA. I LEFT A MAIL ASKING ALOT  OF QUERIES ONE MORNIG.T THERE WAS ANN AGE DIFFERANCE AND A VERY  BIG DIFFERENCE INCULTURE. IN THE SHORT TIME WE CHATED WE COVER ALOT OF GROUNDS. THAT I WANT GO INTO DETAILS , IM SURE HE WILL BE READING THIS. SO SINCE YOU ARE I JUST WANT TO SAY YOU HELPED ME OUT ALOT  IN THE SHORT TIME THAT I KNOW YOU. YOU POINTED OUT ALOT THINGS THAT I WAS NOT AWARE OF. WHEN YOU SAID ALL I NEEDED WAS SOME SUPPORT, NOT FINICIALY, BUT EMOTIONALLY. WHICH RINGS VERY TRUE. NOT BEING ABLE TO SEE THAT FOR MYSELF MAKES ME VERY VULNERABLE, TO WHAT EVER ON THE OTHER SIDE OF MY MOUSE, AND TO WHOM EVER I MEET. BE IT INTERNET OR PERSON TO PERSON I OPEN MY HEART UP AND I SHARE TO MUCH. I LEAVE MY SELF OPEN TO BE USED,ABUSED, CUT UP, AND CHOP UP. I LET PEOPLE IN TO SOON , I NEED TO BE MORE AWARE OF” A WOLF IN SHEEP CLOTHING.” EVERY BODY THAT SPEAKS A KIND WORD DOOES’T ALWAYS AND KIND INTENTIONS. I RELIZED THAT EVERY ONE THAT WANTS TO CHAT MY NOT BE WHO THEY SAY THEY ARE. I WAS LUCKY THIS TIME MY NEW FRIEND “RAB” WAS (IS) A VERY HONEST AND NOBLE FELLOW. BUT I THINK I SHARED A LITTLE BIT TO MUCH WITH HIM. I WAS ABLE TO BE MYSELF , AND TALK .I WAS HAPPY THAT I HAD SOMEONE OUTSIDE OF MY BOX TO TALK TO. SOMEONE THAT COMES FROM A DIFFRENT WORD. TO LEARN SOMETHING NEW AND EXPLORE A WHOLE NEW WORLD ON THE OTHER SIDE OF MY MOUSE I FEEL THAT HE GOT THE WRONG IMPRESSION OF MY INTENSIONS, I WAS JUST HAVING FUN WITH SOME OF THE THINGS I SAID.BECAUSE WE ARE FROM DIDN’T WOLRDS DOES NOT MEAN IT WOULD NOT WORK. MAYBE IF WE WERE A FISH AND A BIRD.IF THEY CARED ENOUGH THEY WOULD FIND AWAY TO BE TOGETHER IF ONE HAD TO GROW WINGS AND THE OTHER GILLS. I KNOW IT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP ON THE OTHER SIDE OF A MOUSE.BEING IN YOUR YOUR WORLD WAS A WAYTO ESCAPE MINE FOR A WHILE . I WANT TO THANK “RAB” FOR A WEEKEND IN HIS WORLD AND HOPE FULLY WE CAN DO IT AGAIN. 🙂 IT HELPED WITH MY CLASS PROJECT.
I’M NOT SAYING THAT THERE ARE BAD THINGS OUT THERE, ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE MOUSE. HAVETO BE MORE CAREFUL WITH MY OPENNESS. I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO POUR A  LITTLE- BIT AT A TIME.  I AM GRATEGUL THAT I WAS ABLE TO REACH OUT AND TOUCH SOME ONE WHO HAS A HEART AND SOME COMPANSION ABOUT HIMSELF. HOPEFULLY YOU WILL RECONSIDER YOUR WAT OF THING AND JUST HAVE A FRIEND IN DEED IN ANOTHER WORLD. THANK YOU “RAB”

THIS ONE IS FROM CHOCOLATE:) 🙂

I’M SMILING !!!

BELEIVE IT YOU MADE A DIFFERENCE.

Gettin’ rewarded

February 23, 2007 - 2 Responses

My son was reconized for his academic performance on the PSAT, which he scored a 142 which would be a 1420 on the real SAT. He was given the Mydris Walker Scholar Award tonight. Where USC Terry Dozier was the speaker. He gave a very humorous, inspiring speech that I actually enjoyed. He talked about being an ugly duckling and becoming the beautiful swan in the end. He spoke of many famous people that overcame obstacles that held them down when they were young. Oprah Winfrey,Thomas Edison and Michael Jordan all of them got over their obstacles.Gettin’ rewared feels good when you have overcome a obstacle. An ostacle could be a word that was planted when you were growing’ like you’re ugly, you’re dumb, or you will never be nothing like your daddy. “Words can kill faster than a bullet” Doozer. Which is true the Bible say there is live and death in the tonuge. What you say some times stays. I had to learn how to love myself because my father and I was never close He was in the home, emotionaly he was not there. I recall the frist time my father ever  hugging me was a month after my mother died in 1991. He needed a shoulder to cry on, when all I had was my pillow. I didn’t mind doing it I needed just as much. Today our realtionship is a little better now he knows how to say “I love you now, we are whatl he has left of mom. Anyway, back to getting rewared I think our children should be rewared by us also not just for doing good in school, commend them on there good behavior, when thet speak a polite word to a sibling.We need to reward one another as adult give a  word of thanks, or just show some love some times by giving out hugs,sometimes thats all it takes to make someones day. Or give a word of encouragement, “Weeping my endure for a night, but joy comes` in the morning.” or “Hold your head up because the sky is the limit to what you can have.” Give some rewards you will receive some rewards. Lettin’ u Go later.

my song

February 23, 2007 - One Response

We had to choose a song for our project to night the song I chose is MJB one she sing it with U2. anyway I swa her perfrom it on American Idol. When she sung the song she put her heart and soul into it. I was well pleased with her performance I don’t buy CD’s because they are the top tne of the week. I bvuy CD’s I know I’m going to like and play. I fall in love with Rod Steward when he was on the Amreican Music Awards I think, he sung “If We Fall in Love Tonight.” I don’t know who he was singing that song to but if she don’t feel anything for him she needs to move on. He have to be able to relate to a song in order to purcahse it because money is tight, very tight. Anyway I’m Not very talkative today still having a conflict will my friend, or old friend lettin’ u go 

passin’ instead of failin’

February 21, 2007 - One Response

We had a test in programming logic last Thursday,that I thought I failed. He gave back the test today, girl-ly girl made 100 with a 2pt curve. That how it usually work out with me When i think I’ve done bad it turns out to be my best work. The further I get in school the better I will get. I’ve learn to study more now if I want good grades,becuase it don’t come easy for me . Had to take driving lessons to get my licsence, so I paid for them over and over again .Passed on the first time out. Entrance exam I passed the reading and writing the first time math never did. I’n the math class made a B just had tyo work a little hard then others but I got it. So i look forward to passin’ out ever I put my mind to, LETTIN’ u GO